Over and over and over.....

I cant help but relive the same conversations with certain people..
and mostly just conversations i dislike..

"oh bla bla bla!"

What a disappointment i have become in the eyes of those that i hold dear to me..
y can you just be happy with the person i have become and quit trying to change me?!
is that what your loved ones do?
change you to the perfect image of a person that you can be?
i sure hope not
this would leave me feeling hollow..
more hollow than i already feel right now..

Thank goodness that this isnt the case with everyone that i hold dear in my life
you that stay close even after these "changes" that i go through..
i thank you all from the deepest parts of my heart..
helping me not feel alone at all..
although there might be distance between us its like that doesn't seem to matter..

boy jack knows how it feels..
ill let him say what i cant..

Song of the day

"Better Love" by Steel Train

Well, you wake the love that sleeps inside
And dreamed that she had never died
Wipe that tear but you don't know why
Boy, you're pretty, but
You're just not for me
Better love I do not see

This girl, she had it kinda sweet
Till fame swept her off her feet
She see's nothing she did before
Let's her colors hit the floor
Scars are in her name
And she scars me in blame
Hey Scarlet, you're not the same

So be careful what you choose
I feel love for me and you
I'm not ashamed
So I'll walk another mile
To help you find out, child
I don't know what to do
I feel lost without you
Better love will come to you

So I flew west to see her pride
Two weeks since the music died
I watch the camera shoot this girl
Seems to me a hollow pearl
Mother sat me down
What's it like oh my boy
to be so destroyed

So be careful what you choose
I felt love for me and you
I'm not ashamed
So I walk another mile (I'll)
To help you find out, child
I don't know what to do
I feel lost without you
Better love will take you through

So here I sit. Some years have passed
I say I don't but I miss her bad
I smell her in my sheets you see
Like she's sleeping next to me
She'll say
Jack, I'm leaving now
So don't you wait up for me
Cause better love I'm yet to see